It's going to say something completely different at the bottom, but that's when I started this.
Everyone who reads this (all three of you) please be praying for me. I'm struggling with a lot on my plate right now and I feel trapped. I'll go into a few of them.
Heidi, this will be a rerun for you.
A) Work: I don't want to work at Target anymore. I know that at one point or another God put me there on purpose. I can't tell if that's the case anymore. Be praying that I have a clear sign for when I need to get out of there.
B) School: I'm struggling with school, as normal. I honestly don't like it, yet I feel like I have to go to make my dad happy. The only accountability I have right now is Heidi. Don't get me wrong she's a wonderful person and an amazing blessing, but I would not expect her to be my full and only accountabiilty for this. That's not fair to her.
C) Church: I'm starting to feel like I'm just going through the motions. I love working there and everything, but I've gotten too comfortable. Something needs to change and I don't know what.
D) Relationships: Mostly with friends. I feel very distant from all of my friends, mainly because I never talk to them. I'm always busy with one of the above activities so I have little/no time for them.
E) Heidi and me: No problems what-so-ever. I would like prayer that our relationship continues to grow and that blessing from God continues to pour down like rain.
F) Relationship with God: This is the biggy and it's probably affecting everything else. I find it hard to make time for God. I definitely have time for Him but it's almost as if I don't care. I do though, I just have no disciplince what-so-ever.
Those are all my problems as of now. I've never really faced them all at once, mostly I don't worry about school/God while I'm at work or I don't worry about...anything...when I'm with Heidi. I just need a lot of prayer or else I'm going to start becoming unglued at poorly smithed hinges.
That's really all I have to say for right now. Have a great morning/afternoon/evening/night/day. Adios amigos.
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hey colly...i dunno how much it'll help but..what if you took things one step at a time...it looks like you've got a lot of stuff to do something about...i'll be praying for ya dude
Honestly, I can't take things one step at a time. I wish I could but I have immersed myself in such a busy lifestyle, in part because I want to do all of these things (except maybe work) but mostly because I'm going to be a youth pastor and my life is going to be much more hectic than this.
I need to be able to do this eventually, so I might as well start now.
I'm not doing any better than when I wrote this, but now it's closer to being the end of the semester than it was.
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