Promise of a Lifetime

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away
Then I remember the pledge you made to me

(Chorus)
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow through the change
I still remember the pledge you made to me

(Chorus)
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside
I am comforted

(Chorus)
To know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

(Chorus)
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
Looking back at me
I know that you can see my heart is holding to
The promise of a lifetime

Promise of a Lifetime - Kutless

Here's the deal guys. It's almost morning. A) I'm having problems sleeping, what else is new. B) I'm feeling really depressed. C) I'm kinda bothered by something, nothing to do with my prior points though. D) Also, my face itches.

A) Sleep: It's getting worse. I fell asleep for maybe 30 seconds and then I woke up. I've been reading since then (sometime around 11:30) and it's not making me any sleepier. I decided to write for a bit because I haven't written in quite a while.

B) These feelings just overcome me sometimes. I'm going to be fine, eventually. I wish I could explain it a little better. I am diagnosed with mild (very mild) depression. It happens so infrequently though that I don't really remember it until it happens. I guess that's sort of a blessing, and a curse.

C) So I'm going to say something to someone that I never got a chance to say and I feel like I'm never going to get the chance. If you don't know what I'm talking about, I might not be talking to you. If you do know what I'm saying, I might not be talking to you. I'm not going to pretend that I'm the only one who understands this, but it's possible. To this person: I forgive you. I probably sound really condescending but I bet that Jesus sounded that way sometimes too. He forgave people who sinned against Him, so I'm doing the same. Just a few questions: Did you ever think my apathy for people's opinions, the same apathy that you encouraged, would back fire on you? Did you ever think you would stand where you were and hold me in contempt because I stood up for myself? Did you ever think, maybe just once, that I'm not under your control anymore? I don't "belong" to you or you don't "own" me. I saw you a few days ago and I've gotta say it pained me. I know I didn't do anything to deserve what you've done to me that's why I stand here, cold-hearted and unaffected. Are you really surprised I've turned so cynical? Are you surprised that I'm actually speaking my mind? Are you surprised I'm not a robot? Are you surprised I'm not programmed to spew out love when all I feel is anger? Are you surprised to hear I have feelings?

Right now the only thing that would really surprise me is if you're reading this. If you are, you were obviously meant to. If you never see this, you were never supposed to.

D) I think my face itches because I shaved today.

Like the name implies. These are my confessions. I am a teenager (just barely) and I am a lunatic. (and not a robot)

If this sounds harsh let me tell you something. Jesus approached harshness when He spoke occasionally. He was harsh towards the fakes, the phonies, the hypocrites. I know I'm not always right (in fact I'm rarely right) but because of my ability to admit that, I'm not a hypocrite.

On another note, are you proud of me? I typed most of this in 20 minutes and got three or four spelling errors, most of which were slang.