Take You Back

The reason why I stand
The answer lies in you
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few
When I fall and bring your name down

But I have found in you
A heart that pleads forgiveness
Replacing all these thoughts
Of painful memories
But I know
That your response will always be

(Chorus)
I'll take you back always
And even when your fight is over now
Even when your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
And even when the pain is coming through
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back

You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm looking for
And I take all I can
And lay it down
Before the throne of endless grace, now
That radiates what's true

I'm in the only place
That erases all these faults
That have overtaken me
But I know
That your response will always be

(Repeat Chorus)

I can only speak
With a grateful heart
As I'm pierced by this gift
Of your love

I will always bring an offering
I can never thank you enough

You'll take me back always
And even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now
You'll take me back always
And even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through
You'll take me back always

Even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now

You'll take me back always

Even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through

You'll take me back

Jeremy Camp
Take You Back

Paul constantly talked about a "thorn in his flesh".

2 Corinthians 12:7
"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great
revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to
torment me."

It was never very clear if the thorn was literally a thorn, or a metaphor for
some sort of sin.

I believe it was the latter, mostly because it makes me feel better.

I believe that Satan has a stronghold in me. No, I'm not posessed, that's
impossible. Satan can't possess my soul, Jesus already has it. But he still does
have power to torment me, if I let him, and unfortunately I do.

I struggle with sin everyday. Every human does, but I feel like I do it more
often than other Christians.

Right now it's like 12 in the morning and I'm feeling wide awake. I sinned
again today and I know all I have to do is ask for forgiveness. But now I feel
like I'm taking advantage of God's grace. Just sinning and sinning...and asking
for forgiveness.

I'm listening to this song over and over again. I know God will take me back.
I lost the fight, the pain is coming through. I'm sitting here facing the real me.
And it sucks. I can't sleep, I can't even think positively anymore. I'm talking
to a friend about it, but pretty soon I'm going to need to let others in.

I've never really done that before and it scares me. I really felt that God
changed me from the inside, but now I feel like that was all fake. I've always
said I don't care what people think, but if that were the case, nobody would
really like me, so obviously I do.

I've lost myself. I might need to withdraw from everything for a while. Be
more like Paul, hanging around in the desert for 12+ years. Have I been in
denial all these years?

Leave a comment if you think you know the real me. I think I'm having an
identity crisis. I'm reaching out deep.